Saturday, October 31, 2009
12:09 am

accept out of goodwill.
reject due to lack of abilities.
who dies in the end?
myself.

Homework.
Mg.
Work.
Friends.
Leisure.
Money.



Endure.
No choice.

Tired is out of the list.
No time to be tired.

no more 8 hrs of sleep.
can't afford it.


Time is clicking off.
Nights....

Thursday, October 29, 2009
1:48 am

School... MG.... Work...
School... MG.... Work...

School's still the top priority.

Performing next tues.

Some sort of choir thing...

Black and red as dress code.

Working full shift on Saturday.

Taking over Shiwen.

Work = More money.

12 X 6 = 72.

Nice.

Tired.

Monday, October 19, 2009
12:31 am

Tomorrow school starts again. Going to get busier and busier. I believe our studies are going to be harder than before. Imagine school then mg for weekdays, then part-time for weekends. Going to suffer like hell. Hope results won't get worst. Haha!

I went to update my bank book and REALISED how much I spent during the holiday!!!!!! And holy shit, the stupid machines duplicated some statements twice. ARGH! Ass. Anyway, I spent like 1/3 of the total earnings I have made on this period of vacation AND THAT EXCLUDES THE PURCHASE OF HANDPHONE!!!!! I dunno how many of you spent ALL that earnings the SAME TIME you earned it, but 1/3 is actually alot AS I dun really know where I have spent my money on. I didnt remember buying clothes and all. Must have spent it on food and entertainment. Let me see.... ....

... Food treats for family and friends. Obligations and bribe.
... Swimming costume. Damn expensive. Hai. Dun talk about anymore.
... A huge bag. Good use.
... Short pants. Essential. Need to get some tops. Talk about it later.
... Some $40 I remember spending.

... The rest I can't remember. Must be food. I ate alot.
... Oh ya. And alot of Pokka Premium Milk Tea. At least 20 bottles in total.

In the end, I left with less than half of my earnings. I mean, I need to save up for things like school fees and MG fees. I can't afford those earn-and-spend lifestyle. Worry about that later.




Went to kbox with some friends. ARGH, so frustrating and embarrassing. Got so moody for that entire day, then to the next day and till now. ARGH! Ass. ass. ass.




Tomorrow, going back to school. Still haven't gather my stuffs for school. Where the hell is my pencil case?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009
12:55 am

ba jaebeom. ba jaebeom.
Dream Concert 2009.


Can see that the rest of the 2PM members and JYP were not happy with the fact that the performance was made without jaebeom.
They can easily ask one of the 2PM members to cover jaebeom's dancing and singing parts.
Easily, seriously. They did it before last time when some other members were absented for performances.
Purposely. Their only way of protest and support. Silent but obvious. Because they can't support him openly. Unless they want to be the next to leave the group.
They left the his dancing spot blank as if he was invinicible and still there performing.
They even pasted his recorded singing into the 'less vocal' version of the songs to the parts where he performed.
As though, he is there. Nothing has changed. Nothing has happened.


So sad and depressing.
I wish that they can leave him alone.
Stop making a fuss.
Stop prodding it.
Just put things to a rest.
Let him come back on his own.
Let him decide for himself.
Respect his decision.


But I really wish him to be back.
In 2PM.
Like nothing happened.



Impossible.




Friday, October 09, 2009
11:48 pm

Lol. Whoa, rest enough liao. haha. After working continuously for 28 days, spent some time with friends, I finally have a full day at home. But with my dad at home, it's not totally enjoyable at all. XD LOL!

Now, I am so sunburnt after going to Jurong to play water with copy. T.T Back to dark-toned skin, hais, will take a long time to return back to my previous skin tone. But I had great fun, playing at the wave and lazy pools. Woo.... We didnt even play for a long time, maybe about 3 hrs, already sunburnt. XD HAHA!

I bought an Omnia 2 and Shiwen bought an Itouch on the same day. HAHA! After working so hard, we deserved some pampering afterall, uh?

The funniest thing is I still didnt know how to operate my hp, after so many days. Some functions just suck! I cannot use personalised ringtone for incoming messages. There goes my Xiah Junsu's 'Eu kyang kyang' message ringtone. =( Gonna miss it. Haha, I can imagine alot of the people from my surroundings are relieved by it. I also give up number-pad style messaging coz I couldnt find it for quite awhile. XD I am also frustrated that the hp doesnt capitalize the first letter of a sentence, even after I clicked for the option. XD Kinda particular with this kind of thing. XDDDD

Spent so much money on rubbish stuffs these days. Seriously, I dunno even really know where the money went, just keep withdrawing money from bank. XD



I missed using comp after so long sia. But when I got the time to use computer, I am at lost of what to do, you noe. Damn pitiful one lei, this kind of feeling. Haha.