Soooo long didnt blog liao.. Too lazy.. no lah, is too busy... LOL... (Like real!! XDDDD ) I busy watching videos.. LOL.

What videos I watched? Of course, are those korean-pop videos. I decided not to watch so much cause I think I got addicted and when I didnt watch it I felt weird. LOL.

I do alot of thinking this week that I forced myself to stop thinking. LOL... I thinking whether should I waste my life. Sounds weird? As you all know, I been working in office for these few months, and I have been thinking whether I going to spend my rest of my life like that, counting down to 6 o'clock and to friday. Am I going waste 30 years doing stuffs I dont even know what I am doing. Ya, Office job is steady kind of job but also a boring job. To live stably or live adventurously, okay lah.. perhaps not adventurously, but something you like, at least you dun live in regrets since we only live once... LOL.. This sounds dumb and like emo-ing. But it's not. THIS IS LIFE PLANNING!!! Start your life planning now, man!

Yesterday, I was photocopy-ing a thick stack of papers with my colleague and best friend in office, Jarryl. It seemed to be our working routine to do it two, three a week. We usually do it together in the printing office so can chit-chat. I knew his mother passed away quite early when I was OT-ing with him the 2nd month I was working in DHL but I never asked him why as I know it is a personal and sensitive topic. But yesterday, we chit-chat till that his dad is quite young for a father of three with two already the age of 24 and 23. Unable to hold my curiosity anymore, I asked the question. He told me it's because of the breast cancer and at the age of 40. He was 18 and at poly at that time. He never went to see his mom for 5 days and when he went to see hospital, his mom told him to study well and passed away on that day. At the moment, I was already unable to hold back my tears, I felt so sad for him, his family and his mother. Now writting this makes my eyes teary.. So young for her to pass away and for Jarryl and his siblings to lose their mom. Jarryl was shocked to see me so sad for someone who I never knew or see before. Maybe I am too emotional bah. =\

I still remember I attended my brother's best friend, Han Xiang's mother wake. When we walked to the coffin to pay respect to his mother. I can felt the grief Han Xiang was feeling when he said, "Mom, My friends come to see you." Even this happened two years ago, It still brings tear to my eyes when I write it now.

I dunno how many people actually read my blog or even really have any emotions reading this post. I'm not going to say craps like, "values your family and friends before it's too late." Sounds like bullshitting.

One really big big thing I want to announce! I learnt the trick of vibrato!! My biggest accomplishment! LOL. =X You think so easy to learn meh?! Playing flute very hard liao loh, vibrato not easy loh! (Argue with myself again.. XDDD )

I am going to tell you all how to vibrato... HAHA.. for those who doesnt play instruments, just telling you how it works.

The video I watched said practise with triplet in 4/4 is better.

Usually we play triplets, we seperate each notes by tongue-ing, so it sounds like, "tu-tu-tu, tu-tu-tu...." But for vibrato, instead of tongue-ing, we use our diaphragm or windpipe to "force" or seperate one long note into triplets, it will sounds like, "hu-hu-hu, hu-hu-hu." It's like breathing thru your mouth but instead inhaling and exhaling, you only exhaling. It's like dogs panting except you dont do it with your tongue out and mouth wide open. If you can get this part, all you need to do is to practise. From 60 bpm to 120 bpm and the wavelength get shorter and shorter.

I, of course, only get the trick nia.. XDDDD I think it takes a least 1 or 2 year to perfect it like Mr Fong. LOL..